In conversation with Father Michael, I was able to verbalize something which I could latch onto on this path leading to death—the idea being that I am approaching reconciliation with my heavenly Father, and can finally free myself of my dilemma of not finding reconciliation with my earthly father. As I die, I can let go of the pain of death which I experienced with my sister’s suicide, with my mother’s death a year later, and more recently  my partner John Moe. Our Father in Heaven will lead me to that celestial riverbank where spirits celebrate the ultimate reconciliation. This is an image of strength for me as I approach my end.
[From Peter’s journal, San Francisco, 1994]